I want to be more positive about a lot of things. I mean, sometimes I think the worst about nothing at all, but if I project this outward, I’ll only get it back in return. And the cycle will continue. So no, this is not me. I want my fun-loving, ever-confident, don’t-give-a-shit girl back. *nods* I love the people around me, so I should definitely let them know in ways that I know how. And learn new ways of doing it too if I can.
Also, I think it’s time to restart my running. The end year adventures really made me gain a whopping 3kg in 2 months. _$)^(#+$&)*@#+^_! Great part is that when Evelyn comes back in April I’ll get my TomTom Runner which I won off eBay. Whopping $70. HELL YEAH! =D No more lugging around 20 items with me (keys, ID, money, phone… damnit so mafan) and the heaviest is definitely my phone. The rest, I can deal with. I want to run another 21km. I think I can do it with better timing. My first run in Penang (granted, it was a mostly straight, uninteresting trek) took me around 3 hours. I wanna slice that to 2.5 hours if I can.. I don’t believe I cannot do it!
Work has been crawling, I think I’ve been focusing more on coordinating efforts and communicating between teams and team members, which is something I seem to excel in. A Human BabelFish, if you will. Hahahah! But I really think it’s not that tricky – just a matter of understanding what makes each side tick, and translating the core message between the two parties (or multiple, depending on how things go). Also still playing a super advisory role – what *should* we do, planning stuff, looking forward and from a bird’s eye view. This is tricky. But I do miss times where I can just sit and fully focus on my coding task(s) instead of throwing them aside – I’m sure they feel unloved! DON’T WORRY I’LL BE BACK FOR YOUUUUU <3 I also want to learn to cook better. I seem to be flopping magnificently in most kitchen adventures, something which I wanna improve on. I can grasp things theoretically, and pretty quickly too.. but when it comes to the actual action I feel like I'm going to make everything explode. I CAN DO EETS. AND I WILL. Somewhat related to all of the above - I also want to be a better girlfriend. Yes, that's right. However that may be. Trust, communication, taking care of myself, and finding pockets of time with the ever-busy boyfriend and making those moments count. Pictures? Words? Gifts? Laughs? Kisses? I'm all in. I need to be brave - this is just as good as every other adventure that I will go through in my life. *hmph* Here's to a great 2015! And Happy Chinese New Year! =D