this month is full of Fuck-ups.

Recently it feels like April is really just a shitty month =\

Friend A is going through some crisis with long-time girlfriend. He’s sure, she’s not.
Friend B – this one just befuddles me. I go on trips without inviting them, cause they’re not interested in running! Also, there’s a prick that neither of us likes that happens to be going. So angry at me for 2 reasons (first is not being included, second is “You’d rather go with a prick than with us?!”). Hey, I’m there FOR THE RUN. LET ME RUN. We have our own trips to make, just that it’s not set in stone yet. How can it be, with crisis looming over their heads? I feel like I’m getting the hit because I am the one who started these run trips. WHAT IS PROBLEM WITH RUNNING.
Friend C – no motivation, no job satisfaction.
Me – apart from being single (it was a crisis, but I’m in a better place now – am sure of it.), facing some dead-brain syndrome at work. I want to move forward faster than what this place can offer me.

this year…

I want to be more positive about a lot of things. I mean, sometimes I think the worst about nothing at all, but if I project this outward, I’ll only get it back in return. And the cycle will continue. So no, this is not me. I want my fun-loving, ever-confident, don’t-give-a-shit girl back. *nods* I love the people around me, so I should definitely let them know in ways that I know how. And learn new ways of doing it too if I can.

Also, I think it’s time to restart my running. The end year adventures really made me gain a whopping 3kg in 2 months. _$)^(#+$&)*@#+^_! Great part is that when Evelyn comes back in April I’ll get my TomTom Runner which I won off eBay. Whopping $70. HELL YEAH! =D No more lugging around 20 items with me (keys, ID, money, phone… damnit so mafan) and the heaviest is definitely my phone. The rest, I can deal with. I want to run another 21km. I think I can do it with better timing. My first run in Penang (granted, it was a mostly straight, uninteresting trek) took me around 3 hours. I wanna slice that to 2.5 hours if I can.. I don’t believe I cannot do it!

Work has been crawling, I think I’ve been focusing more on coordinating efforts and communicating between teams and team members, which is something I seem to excel in. A Human BabelFish, if you will. Hahahah! But I really think it’s not that tricky – just a matter of understanding what makes each side tick, and translating the core message between the two parties (or multiple, depending on how things go). Also still playing a super advisory role – what *should* we do, planning stuff, looking forward and from a bird’s eye view. This is tricky. But I do miss times where I can just sit and fully focus on my coding task(s) instead of throwing them aside – I’m sure they feel unloved! DON’T WORRY I’LL BE BACK FOR YOUUUUU <3 I also want to learn to cook better. I seem to be flopping magnificently in most kitchen adventures, something which I wanna improve on. I can grasp things theoretically, and pretty quickly too.. but when it comes to the actual action I feel like I'm going to make everything explode. I CAN DO EETS. AND I WILL. Somewhat related to all of the above - I also want to be a better girlfriend. Yes, that's right. However that may be. Trust, communication, taking care of myself, and finding pockets of time with the ever-busy boyfriend and making those moments count. Pictures? Words? Gifts? Laughs? Kisses? I'm all in. I need to be brave - this is just as good as every other adventure that I will go through in my life. *hmph* Here's to a great 2015! And Happy Chinese New Year! =D

cycle

Back in primary school (Standard 1) my best friends were 3 guys. Don’t remember their names now, but I always got picked on for being the girl among them.

I love those times though, cause we could be wild and fun and do all sorts of silly things (like sliding straight into a storm drain cause our school was atop a little hill) and I would have never done that with a bunch of girls. =P

Time flies, and now at work, again my closer guy friends at work, I have 3 of them. Dinners, outings, and random chats together. Funny how the cycle restarts at some point of life – I never expected it to be now, though.

But am grateful. =)

combating jetlag

I’ve been really pumped up about this trip for weeks! And now I’m here, I’ll say it’s reminded me of Gipps more than anything, somehow. The spaced out buildings, small communities, cosy cafes, shopping centers like the ones in Traralgon or Morwell.
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First flight to Hong Kong was alright, it just took off late.

Which led to the mad chase of trying to get to the connecting flight on time. We landed 30mins to takeoff, ran up and down stairs and also had to take a shuttle to a different terminal. I really thought I was gonna miss the plane, but really I juuuuuuuuuuust made it 10 mins to takeoff. phew!

The one thing I really hated about this long haul flight was that my legs ached so I had to climb over the rest (yeah I got the window seat, gah) to go out on pretext of going to the bathroom. Haha and for some reason, I kept watching animated/fantasy movies like Alice in Wonderland and Tangled. Tangled is *awesome, btw*. Fell asleep for abit, had my entire body ache for abit, then rounded up the movie watching with The Tourist and Mr. & Mrs. Smith. Angelina Jolie is.. woot! =D
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Landing in SFO was a joy! Well, not the queue at the immigration counter, but the officer himself (and henceforth for this part shall be called CIO – Cute Immigration Officer), hahah! =D

CIO: So, where are you from?
Me: KL.
CIO: Ah, then did you bring any food over?
Me: Nope.
CIO: Not bak kut teh, nasi lemak, nasi goreng, charkuayteow..etc.?
Me: If I did, I’d gladly give them to you.
…. some more idle chatter…
CIO: Ah, I was just going to say that you don’t seem like a Singaporean.
Me: Was that a compliment?
CIO: Knowing the catfights you Msians and Sporeans get yourselves into, yes (laughs)
Me: bwahahha!

Totally made my day, this dude. XD
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Met Jon at Mountain View! First time getting bear hugs from him, haha it was a real pleasure to meet you too after so long! XD Grabbed some Subway (oh BLT, I WUB JOO SO! point #1: they has honey mustard! point #2: they have BACON!) but since I couldn’t eat in the train, had to wait till I got to my hotel room.

On the train ride, I managed to spot some big name logos on buildings, like Yahoo and Aol, haha it’s just as iconic as seeing Microsoft! Or Google, or any other big tech corp that you can think of. You get the idea.

(The bit bout checking in at the hotel, I think the lady incredulously looked at me thinking, “You? Here? But you look like a kid!!”) Thaaaatt slight bit iffy that the room was furthest away, but that was soon ignored once I opened the door and stepped in.

ZOMG this place is like a fully furnished apartment! Proper kitchenette, working table with Internet connection, a living area with a LCD TV, seperated bedroom with *yet* another LCD TV, a seperate wet and dry toilet. I was so jakun XD
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Jon & I decided to head out to the San Jose Marketplace, and that place has so much carpark one could only dream bout of back in KL. Bought some chocos, and wandered around most of the shops.
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Dinner was Mexican food, haha I’ve come to learn that Jon does not like stuff with corn in them. So I ate the tortillas, he sapu-ed a fair bit of the salsa XD The service was abit sucky so I was abit hesitant to tip them, but I had this feeling she was trying to imply we were so cheapo that we had to share a meal.

Sure, it’s pricey, but we can’t eat much (mainly cause Jon had a Carls. Jr burger couple of moments earlier) and now I think what that excellent service they’ve given, I won’t be walking into this resto anytime soon.
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We talked alot about disciplining kids, fussy eating, staff with bad waitering skills, work life.. haha he’s got a list of lessons to learn. Which is very reasonable indeed =D
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Chatted abit with the folks over Skype, and now I’m friggin’ sleepy. Upload photos and tidur I go!