it’s friday again..there’s a one-week holiday. stupid thing is there’s all the science exams to sit for after it..so what do we do? what else but study..sigh.
aiori’s pretty heartbroken over lacan. I don’t know what to do cause I don’t have ANY experience in this field whatsoever. I think I never got involved with a guy to be that depressed. So I just told her that in whatever she does, I believe in her. Which I do, and not just some sweet-talk. I wish I could help her, but the reality is it’s entirely up to her… I can tell she still likes lacan, she’s in the middle of regretting her actions. I say since you’ve done it already, just move on. Then again, saying it is one, doing it is another.
So she took it out on pen and paper. She wrote it in fiction. About the three selves in her; aiori,rosette and jilii. Aiori is the happy one, rosette is the serious one, and jilii is there to fill the gaps that the other two couldn’t take. I think it’s pretty creative of her~because it makes interesting reading. Her thoughts spill out via them. I would never write it out, even on paper, even if I’m alone. I guess I have this will that makes me remember what I want to and forget what I want to.
While aiori was unleashing her wrath and anguish on written material, I went to sleep for awhile, then talked to my English teacher. She’s an interesting person. I can’t explain it. Shajaratuddur is one of a kind. Probably because she’s somewhat sarcastic. She continued on by saying I write pretty well, just that it’s cut short. Lacking of something. I was quite surprised. Okay, I didn’t expect her to say it. Then she continued by badmouthing my class attitude, which I’m not surprised either. She hates my class. So does the entire teaching force of the school. The previous teachers were protesting against teaching our class because they knew that their lifespans would shorten drastically if they did. So came a batch that were more of forced out of their will to teach us. Someone HAD to do the dirty job, I guess. I’m not twitching any eyebrows, I expected it.
We crapped for the rest of the day(about another hour before school ended) about lots of things. About life’s prospects. Not that we’re philosophical, but maybe our minds just wandered. Thinking of what we would do in the future, our jobs. Talked about what she’s gonna eat for dinner today; it’s her brother’s farewell party, and they’re having it at Friday’s. Even though her brother’s leaving on Tuesday. Talked about owning a second-floor(reeis suggested a third-floor) studio, a place where we could do everything we wanted, or a place to hang out: in other words, our second home if we didn’t feel like facing reality for awhile. It would be cool- We could draw our stuff there, get pissed drunk there XD, sing, play, dance…whatever~
Gave reeis her present today, who cares if her birthday is next week. She was estatic. I don’t know if she was near tears or anything, but she’s sure happy that we started her off with her very own Sandman collection, her own physical collection about Neil Gaiman’s works that she always drools over during her spare time(or so I’d like to think XD). Wonder if it means it’ll settle her presents for the next, I don’t know, four years? Or would we(aiori and I) settle for something *ahem ahem* less strainful on our wallets?