what is happening to me?

I’m in a blardy bad mood. I can’t stand my parents and my younger brother cause they’re getting on my nerves..Maybe it’s just the problematic me. I think I’m gonna snap soon ~_~

I’ve been like this since yesterday. The only thing that cools me off is listening to music. Or going online. So I went for a walk..I walked into Uptown, took a stroll, went into a pet shop, went into a bookshop and went home. At about 11 pm.

Woke up..was feeling grumpy -again-. Lunch seemed to fix that. Oh well..

exams: week 2 over, 2 weeks more to go

fuuuuuuuuuuh. The second week of exams are over. ~_~ I can’t wait for next week; biology 2, physics 2 and chemistry 2 all over again…

Summary of the exam so far:

Wednesday : 18 August

2 essay papers~it was ok, not too bad. Didn’t think too much about it cause I think my writing skills are okayy.

Thursday : 19 August

Math 2 was difficult!! I had barely enough time to complete the damn paper. Left some blanks and wrong answers flying around. EST was easy XD..Practically a gift subject.An easy A I guess.

Monday : 30 August

Biology 2 paper. Difficult, and was actually afraid that some super-difficult questions would appear. Didn’t think it was all as bad as I had expected, but you never know.. BM 2 was, er, somewhat crappy. I hate the literature section. The rest I *think* I could cope with.

Wednesday : 1 September

Add math 1 wasn’t too bad at all..compared to Math, I feel. At least I could do both. That’s what you get for underestimating it. Chemistry nearly killed me~@_@ I remember having a major headache after the exam and unable to revise physics for the next day.

Thursday : 2nd September

So I did last-minute studying 3 hours before the physics exam. Good thing I don’t take accounts. Physics 2 was bad – It was the only science paper where my mind was blank >_< Friday : 3rd September

Fuuwa fuuwa! Today there was History 2. Did a once-over 3 hrs before exam -again- and things actually stayed in my head..Anyway there were tips(from the teachers), so the entire form knew more or less what was gonna come out. Not too bad..but who the &^%*&%$* would wanna remember what Wawasan 2020 is let alone bullshit 15 marks for it?!

rip up the textbooks!….in a few months I will >=)

**laughs**

I was reading よつばと! a while ago. It’s super funny and super cute, I couldn’t help laughing at it. Just thinking about it makes me laugh. It’s so funny it tickles, and I would forget about depressing things after reading this. Talk about stress relief~

Fuuh, today’s biology paper 2 was super-tough. Okay, not as tough until I couldn’t answer any, but I couldn’t answer some. Or not sure and ended up crapping something just to fill space. Good thing I did a crash revision last night. Burned the midnight oil until about 2 am. In between consciousness and dreamland I would listen to songs on the iPod mini which kept me from sleeping. I loved listening to the single Follow Me by 伊藤君子. Personally my favourites from the single are “My favourite things” and “A song for you”. Oh well. I’m just glad that I got Biology over with. At least the hardest paper is done. Now to ready up for Chemistry, Physics and History. Not forgetting(sigh) Addmath and Modmath. Somehow my math subjects never seem to be plausible enough for my report card.

(note: Don’t I love putting up links?XD)

Tomorrow’s National Day! It would be my country’s 47th, if I’m not mistaken. Yep. A calculator is rarely wrong. Also the day that Princess Diana passed away. Such a coincidence. While everyone’s partying here, a few other million will be mourning in England tomorrow.

I’m not going to play army!

hehehe~ I’m not going for National Service..This calls for a celebration!!

Okay, not really. No parties. But the fact remains: I’m not going for NS

Heard that some of my friends are planning to defer while they escape to Australia. I sure don’t know how that’s gonna work. Oh well. Means I’ll be living a normal life while some 80000 kids are gonna play army for 3 months.

How I feel about it?

Estatic. XD Means I can still be indulgent and slack my arse off.

How I knew?

Well, ap msged me just now to tell me that she was chosen. So she asked me wether I was selected as well. Apparently the candidates this year have surnames starting with L. So does mine. Out of curiosity, I stepped forth into uncharted waters to discover my fate. And hey ho, whaddya know, I’m not one of ’em. So there.

Time elapsed: 00:00:15

Aaaaaah, the sweet smell of freedom. How I love it so.

am I in trouble?

Yesterday, my cousins came over. Phew, talk about hectic. We were taking some really goofy pictures, recording our voices and playing back chipmunk style and play PS2.We played all day, and it wasn’t until 10:30 pm that I realized I haven’t touched my books. So I hurried to flip abit, studied some of light and its properties as well as electromagnets. Then I checked my handphone, and my cousin messaged me to say that his sister’s iPod mini was going to be mine.

**screams in joy**

Today, they came over again. They’re shifting today, so my aunt and uncle took the convenient option and dropped them over. My cousin brought over the mini as well. Now it’s sitting in my room. It’s pink. Shiny pink. I didn’t scream in front of them though, but at the same time I felt a little guilty. Each of my cousins have a mini(3 in total) given to them by an eccentric rich friend of their dad’s. Since my younger cousin sister’s only 7, he managed to convince them to pass it over to me. Now he’s at tuition from 11 to 5. Sort of pity him…tuition straight, with a lunch break in between.

Generally we did the same stuff yesterday, just that this time Kimberly was here. Which made the chipmunk spirit more lively than yesterday.

And I haven’t touched my books for today either. Will do so later.

First things first, thank my aunt and uncle for giving me the mini.

pork chops for dinner

ROAR!! I could just kick my computer.. I think it’s Azureus. It’s making my computer jam, so bad until I couldn’t update my blog today OR yesterday..So my entry yesterday was actually posted in today..%^*%&$*&$

Went to have seafood for lunch.. XDXD It was great~ but the drive there took about two hours…set off at 11:30 and arrived at 1:30. Had Marmite crab,calamari, prawns and assam fish. Thinking about it makes me drooool. Finished lunch at 3:00 and reached home at 4:00. Then proceeded to study Physics. How time flies. Sadly didn’t make much progress though. Must finish something by today.

Now stuck reading A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens. My favourite character is Sidney Carton. He’s a genius, unlike his lookalike Charles Darnay that’s somewhat useless and even worse, steals Lucie Mannette’s heart…Both the men like Lucie, but that useless guy gets her in the end. He was the one that should’ve been sent to the Bastille, in my opinion. It was so nice of Sidney to sacrifice himself for their sake. Nevermind then. I guess that’s how stories are.

ji hui is going to go to Sheffield,England on the 17th September. 5 days after my birthday. I don’t know wether to feel happy or sad. He’s a nice person. He likes yaoi. Both don’t exactly match. But that’s what he is. I’m just wondering wether to give him a going-away present.

book mania

It’s my brother’s birthday..Still a good 50 minutes or so before the stamp with large imprinted letters “irritating 13-year-old” is permanently etched on his forehead. Had a blueberry cheesecake.

Went to the bookstore, and there I saw so many books that I wanted..The price was slightly steep for some, and okay for others. This one particularly caught my attention: The Apologist by Ray Jayner.

The first sentence of the preface read: “I’m so sorry that you bought this book”.

What went through my head then:” I HAVE to buy it.

It reminded me so much of myself. I have this bad habit of apologizing even though it’s not really my fault. And I don’t have subtlety in my words either.

It’s about this reckless reporter who dishes out ghastly and merciless reviews on restaurants. So much so that one of the restaurant’s chefs decides to kill himself. And that’s when he realized, “Maybe I went too far..”..So he decides to apologize. Hard for most people, and somehow, from apologizing for something so trifle, he has been appointed as the National Apologist. My eyes boggled.

Then I saw Jonathan Livingstone Seagull by Richard Bach. I was surpised. Very. My first copy was xeroxed(talk about piracy). In my opinion I could just read this book over and over, and I probably wouldn’t realize it. Like how much I like The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. This book is another inspirational piece, mainly talking about being different from the rest. Being truly joyful because you know what you want to do, you sacrifice for it, and every bit of it was worth it. I can’t really explain it in words. I love it so much I want to give it to someone. Share the joy that I had with this book with them.

love can either make or break a person

it’s friday again..there’s a one-week holiday. stupid thing is there’s all the science exams to sit for after it..so what do we do? what else but study..sigh.

aiori’s pretty heartbroken over lacan. I don’t know what to do cause I don’t have ANY experience in this field whatsoever. I think I never got involved with a guy to be that depressed. So I just told her that in whatever she does, I believe in her. Which I do, and not just some sweet-talk. I wish I could help her, but the reality is it’s entirely up to her… I can tell she still likes lacan, she’s in the middle of regretting her actions. I say since you’ve done it already, just move on. Then again, saying it is one, doing it is another.

So she took it out on pen and paper. She wrote it in fiction. About the three selves in her; aiori,rosette and jilii. Aiori is the happy one, rosette is the serious one, and jilii is there to fill the gaps that the other two couldn’t take. I think it’s pretty creative of her~because it makes interesting reading. Her thoughts spill out via them. I would never write it out, even on paper, even if I’m alone. I guess I have this will that makes me remember what I want to and forget what I want to.

While aiori was unleashing her wrath and anguish on written material, I went to sleep for awhile, then talked to my English teacher. She’s an interesting person. I can’t explain it. Shajaratuddur is one of a kind. Probably because she’s somewhat sarcastic. She continued on by saying I write pretty well, just that it’s cut short. Lacking of something. I was quite surprised. Okay, I didn’t expect her to say it. Then she continued by badmouthing my class attitude, which I’m not surprised either. She hates my class. So does the entire teaching force of the school. The previous teachers were protesting against teaching our class because they knew that their lifespans would shorten drastically if they did. So came a batch that were more of forced out of their will to teach us. Someone HAD to do the dirty job, I guess. I’m not twitching any eyebrows, I expected it.

We crapped for the rest of the day(about another hour before school ended) about lots of things. About life’s prospects. Not that we’re philosophical, but maybe our minds just wandered. Thinking of what we would do in the future, our jobs. Talked about what she’s gonna eat for dinner today; it’s her brother’s farewell party, and they’re having it at Friday’s. Even though her brother’s leaving on Tuesday. Talked about owning a second-floor(reeis suggested a third-floor) studio, a place where we could do everything we wanted, or a place to hang out: in other words, our second home if we didn’t feel like facing reality for awhile. It would be cool- We could draw our stuff there, get pissed drunk there XD, sing, play, dance…whatever~

Gave reeis her present today, who cares if her birthday is next week. She was estatic. I don’t know if she was near tears or anything, but she’s sure happy that we started her off with her very own Sandman collection, her own physical collection about Neil Gaiman’s works that she always drools over during her spare time(or so I’d like to think XD). Wonder if it means it’ll settle her presents for the next, I don’t know, four years? Or would we(aiori and I) settle for something *ahem ahem* less strainful on our wallets?

such immature ideas reside in me

sigh.the inevitable has happened..during the english essay paper my brain refused to work. and thus I wrote about how I fought with my brother cause he was playing with the blardy television remote control…IT’S SO GODDAMN CHILDISH!!! I have this sinking feeling that I’ll get a lame score on that one.

I surprisingly did better for my other essay though. Or so I thought. I stuck to the typical typical content that teachers would look out for. Hopefully I get a decent score.

better spent time than yesterday

Spent the better half of the day at school in the library..not like the teachers are doing anything useful anyway..

My dad’s sick today, so he came home earlier than usual..Pukey and pretty pale complexion don’t light the “I’m fine-let’s work!”button. So he went to the doctor. Down with the fever, but still in good spirits though. I think sleep does wonders in curing. Just now my bro called my dad’s hp. That’s some harsh wake-up call.

Helped him composed a letter to the MPDA president. From there I sorta re-remembered how much he cares for my ngan-ngan..though she’s up There already, I think she’d be happy to know that her son still thinks of her. I don’t remember much of her, I always thought she was really tall and liked to watch those Cantonese serials on rented VHS. I was quite young back then, I guess I was about 4-6 years old. When she woke up from her afternoon naps she would call me into the room and we would watch the Canto serials until it was time for dinner. Occasionally my guama joined in too~ they were THE enthusiasts of the house. I guess that’s why up till now I still remember the re-runs when it’s aired on TV.

Exams start tomorrow with the 2 language subjects- both of which are essay writing..not that I dislike it, but my brain refuses to dish out something nice..Usually I write about something morbid, and I realize it bores. After writing it I realize I’ve made my writing skills look like a child’s. I hate that.

Must remember to think positive.**goes off to make mental note**